Friday, March 19, 2010 @3/19/2010 05:22:00 PM
so J and i were talking and we realised we are failures.
there is nothing to be proud of.
not smart, not rich, not pretty.
there is just this feeling of jealousy when friends who did so much worse than u from sec sch to jc are dean's listers now.
D said it all comes back to one's self confidence. However, the more you expect, the greater the disappointment. I have experienced that so many times, i dont think i can experience such great disappointment anymore. But then i know i am not contented with what i have right now. I want more, I want to achieve greater stuff. I want to be proud of who I am.
Decisions, decisions, decisions.
Monday, March 01, 2010 @3/01/2010 09:31:00 PM
it's really getting too difficult. i am doubting my ability to handle all this shit.
Sunday, January 31, 2010 @1/31/2010 05:20:00 PM
the truth hurts and lies worse
Saturday, January 30, 2010 @1/30/2010 02:21:00 AM
i should have realised this 1 year 4 mths ago.
but okay i never realised we were so different.
i just dont know what to say to you at times because i will just get a errrrr or righttt reply, which kinda sucks. It just makes me not want to say anything anymore because i feel it is just useless.
maybe, just maybe, you should find someone who is able to understand u and actually makes u feel better.
because i really feel damn fucking useless.
Tuesday, January 05, 2010 @1/05/2010 08:41:00 PM
the first week of 2010 has started and i just have the urge to blog about the past year.
first day of 2009 started so badly that i cried. i even told myself i do not want to celebrate my birthday anymore, but alas, i did celebrate with ALOT of ppl this year.
year 2 sem 2 passed by so quickly with preparations of work and travel and well as usual lots of ups and downs. it was also the sem where i became closer to bernie, weeyin and eunice due to ahem e learning. it was a painful module but well company was great, with the constant bitching. haha. frankly speaking i cant really remember anything significant that happened in the first half except for my first every trip overseas alone. but i definitely learnt how to let go. there were hurtful words and happy times but in the end, you just got to learn how to not let all that bother you.
after that came work n travel USA. i was super duper bloody excited. 3 whole months in AMERICA. lots of fun times and new friends which i will probably never see again, the bad internet connection, the unlucky moments and hilarious trips. i dont think i will ever experience usa the same way ever again. this was also the first time i drove in usa! left hand drive and going up to 120miles per hour. haha.
after finally coming back to hot sunny singapore, d left for china, sometimes i really wonder how we actually lasted for so long apart, coupled with the numerous break ups and arguments and time differences. i never knew what was gonna happen. but y3s1 came and go , i didnt do as well as i wanted which totally threw me into my quarter life crisis, i had no idea what to do. but somehow, i became closer to my og/DBs during this time, i turned to them for help whenever i needed them and omg adstrats. i never cried so badly due to school before.
then tadaa, hca internship appeared, and well i would say i managed to experience life differently over there. it was like an awakening, death is gonna happen to all of us and i guess it is true when we say we dont add days to life but life to days.
overall, 2009 was a horrible year for me. but i THINK i have learnt alot, how to deal with people and found out what i really want. hope 2010 will be an awesome year for me n you :)
Sunday, June 21, 2009 @6/21/2009 12:21:00 PM
it has been a month since i came here!
sorry dears
the place that i was staying in had no internet connection, so we had to sit outside the employee centre everytime i used my laptop
and it was so freaking cold, i could hardly stay out there for long
but i finally moved to the on site dorms.
so YAY internet connection and bigger room!
working has been pretty mundane and slackkkk
except that i have to work at 830 on some days which sucks coz i have to wake up super super super early
update.
i got my 1st pay check!
and i just went to toledo for a day trip on the 18th
i actually drove there. it was about a 1.5 hr drive.and i mistook the wiper thingy for the signal damn alot of times
hahaha
and i drove up to 80mph! which was kinda scary coz after i converted it was almost 120km/h and i did not even realise.
it was another small town. but i love the antique shop and stuff. quite fun!
listmajojo. we should all travel again soon!
oh. i was pretty angry with one of the customer one day. coz she put the blame on me and said sthg like it was the ASIAN girl who screwed me up when it was my other friend who tlked and served her. wthhhhh
and i overslept today!
i was supposed to start work at 830am and my alarm didnt go off and i ended up waking up at like 815.
thank goodness i woke up for no reason.
may be going detroit, michigan next week.
MISS YOU GIRLS :'(
Monday, May 25, 2009 @5/25/2009 10:02:00 AM
nuaaaaaaaa day
rach n eu had to work today.
so pl n i nua-ed in my room the whole day.
we watched ghosts of the girlfriends past, ate lots of chips and continued nuaing.
finally did our laundry. it was like one whole load. but our clothes were not dry. lousy dryer.
so we had to hand our clothes all over our room. damn messy
i hate it when the rec center is closed. it is so damn freaking cold outside at night
finally starting work next monday!
@5/25/2009 09:55:00 AM
went to walmart again!
bought more groceries, and then went to sandusky mall
they really have alot of land. such a big mall, but there was only 1 level
lots of shops here.
and their clothes are very nice!!!
they have 2 HUGE shoe shops. mannnn
because we were carrying so many bags of groceries, we took turns to sit down and wait while the others shop
i bought this damn cute doctor baby suit for my future niece!
finally took the 8 plus bus home
and ate microwave food AGAINNNN.
really gonna grow fat man.